Holiday Weekend

Ok, well I don't like the weekends so much....let me re-phrase that.....I like weekends because the hubby is home and we can go on family outings or just relax and have family time together, but as far as food and exercise, weekends are hard....I am totaly off my schedule and get side tracked to easy.   

My weekend started on Friday, July 3rd, which was our wedding anniversary...13 years...so all of the kids had sleepovers and my hubby and I went out to dinner and met with friends for drinks after....It was a nice and relaxing night.

Saturday, was a do nothing day, after getting the kids we just hung at home and did nothing...which is rare.....then later that night one of the kiddies was in the fourth of July parade and we attended that then took them to dinner at Olive Garden....which was good..actually too good!!! No exercise that day.   

Then Sunday we cooked out and went to see fireworks, yesterday we had my hubby's family over and leftovers.

I don't know why is it so hard to keep a schedule on the weekends... now I feel extreme yuckness (not a word I know..but my description) because I didn't do well over the weekend....I am trying hard not to beat myself up and just letting go...but sometimes I get these waves that pass over me and the guilty feeling comes back...Why is it so difficult to  stay on track....is it that I don't want it bad enough...because I do.....is it that I let others dictate or guilt me into eating what I know is not healthy for me....or the fact that I go in with the attitude that I can eat anything just in moderation and then talk my self into "one more bite" which ends up to be 20 one more bites????

Tomorrow I will be weight myself..and today I will be food journaling maybe thats the key.

I don't know, I am not an expert, but I am the only one that can truly lose the weight, NO ONE can do it for me I am the only one that can! So it is high time I start Living on the Edge....of My Own Life!