Its been Two months.....

since I picked my word for the year...and in that time I have lost loved ones....a tooth by surgical extraction....had diverticulitis...(now scheduling a colonoscopy...in which I would rather give child birth another go around!!!)UTI infection....more sickness...and loss of  child support from my ex-husband.....so this word

RELEASE....

I keep thinking of my original Jan. 1st post of...

Letting GO and Letting God.....

and trying to breathe and become who I am meant to be.....

makes me think that is this one word.....RELEASE ...is either meant to be very powerful in my life this year and is truly allowing me to RELEASE the old stuff that has lingered in my life a little too long or I am just noticing all the negative stuff that has happened in these 2 months of the year 2011, or maybe it is just that little black cloud hanging over my head...you know the one that lets the rain fall down on your parade???!!.

I believe that Releasing all of the negative is a good thing.... My tooth was ready to come out...a root canal gone bad...my diverticulitis maybe a way to tell me to eat and treat my body healthier...the loved ones lost...well it was just their time to go home to heaven....my ex...well he recently got married and  maybe that's a way for me to un-attach my self from him...I am happily married to a wonderful man...and although the support was a nice perk...that's all it was... it wasn't enough to make a dent...but I felt it was making up for all the years he didn't support his kids.So a day after my sons 21st birthday...he texted me that it was time for his release...

Well it is really time for MY RELEASE... Its time to let go...time to...BREATHE...and BECOME my own self.