Reverb10 Prompt 13

Prompt: Action. When it comes to aspirations, its not about ideas. It's about making ideas happen. What's your next step?

aspiration as·pi·ra·tion

 [as-puh-rey-shuh n] –noun

1. strong desire, longing, or aim; ambition:

 intellectualaspirations.

2. a goal or objective desired

When thinking about this I find myself lost in thought..... realizing that I have a long lists of aspirations.....but the problem I encounter is completing or even getting the gumption to start working toward making them happen.   Why is it so hard for me to follow through???Take for example losing weight.....I need to lose 35 lbs...which doesn't seem to be a lot when I write it on paper but in my reality it might as well be 100 pounds!!

I want it bad enough ...but maybe not that bad, because when I start taking the steps of running, riding the bike, lifting weights,eating healthy....it doesn't last long, I get derailed by a cold or kids getting sick, not having time to cook dinner and eating out seem to be an easier option, house hold errands or the busyness of "shuttle service" for my children. 


 Another aspiration is to write a blog everyday...the ups and downs as a wife, mother with 5 children and the everyday happenings that I go through...sometimes serious and but most  times comical, things that story books are made of...some instances a reader might think are made up...but they are not...I have lived them!! Why don't I allow myself to do that...does the fear seem bigger than the aspiration???

 Why is it so hard to follow through???

...fear??

....not having a friends to cheer me on or go with me on runs??

....feeling alone on this journey???

...if my friends and family saw the blog, they would not give good feedback, maybe even saying it was stupid???

why does action seem like a brick wall......which is too high to get over, and it just  easier to back down???